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bloodlust : chapter 15
bloodlust chapter 15 (final chapter) "it is time to stand up... i think"
i was in the mood to stand up to those bitches... well i think i was anyway. i was tired and sick of them treating me and my bf like a bag of shit. i was tired of the insults and everything they do and say to us.
"i know but"
we thought about it for aleast 1 hour. we decided not to because we wern't all that ready to. we really wanted to but we just couldn't.
this is the story of my life....
bloodlust : chapter 14
bloodlust chapter 14 "derr"
"that's what i said tho"
"well i thought you said something eles"
"derr, i didn't tho"
after my little eposide with my mother i left to take a walk. the best thing was it was raining so none of the stupid bitches were out. that made my daay shine more darkness into my soul.
"well well isen't that the emo"
"it so is"
"what a loner"
well there goes my day runed. i thought none of that would happen but knowing my luck it did. it's just grr.
i just wanted to say yes im emo and i am proud of it so leave me the hell alone bitch. but i only said that in my head. i just kept on walking farther and farther until i hit the forrest. dark and wet... hmmm my kind of place minis the wet part.
i found a nice log to sit on and pulled out my drawing book. i started to sketch andy six from black veil brides. i dont know why i did but i guess i just had that feeling that i wanted to or that i had to draw him. i sta there for a good 3 hours a
bloodlust : chapter 13
bloodlust chapter 13 "who cares"
alone in my room i cut the pain away. knowing that no ones cares. that it dosent matter to them. what happens if i go to deep? would they notice? or not? i dont know but for now they dont.
writting a song i was thinking about my life. i wrote down so many ideas and thoughts and it finally turned out kinda like this :
(verse 1) ill be the one who understands, youll never be alone, just think for a secound, and dont let hate take over, illl be the one you trust and the one you look for when you need help, whisper in my ear and tell me what is wrong, tell me your nightmares
(chours) in the dark we live, in the light we melt, in the dark we are us and no one eles in dark
(verse 2) never give in always count on yourself, see the moon comeing thro, knowing lies mixed with trust, roses fall angels die no matter what ill hold you ill be there for when you need me the most, whoa... see im there
(chours) in the dark we live, in the light we melt, in the dark
bloodlust : chapter 12
bloodlust chapter 12 "are they fakeing?"
i look at everybody and they seemed not to care. i was wondering whats wrong with them. no insults nothing. this was strange but i also think it could be one messed up dream.
"i love that outfit"
"omg so pretty"
"loveing the hair, where did you get done"
so many 'nice' complements i was dreaming. cause none of those snobs would act like this to me. none of them even know my name for pete sake.
"oh were did you get the bag from"
"black veil brides.... they look cool"
WTF!!! is going on i wanted to say but i didn't.
bloodlust : chapter 11
bloodlust chapter 11 "i love you so much"
it was the end of the day i went to go meet my boyfriend. when i saw him i ran up and gave him the biggest hug ever.
"i missed you"
"i missed you to"
we walked towards the old park ignoring any insults we get. i was way to happy to care right now anyway. we got to the park and to my eyes i saw the picnic table set up. black table cloth with blood red candles and mr. noodles.
"this is so amazing"
"thank you but there is more"
he went over to the old broken and craked slide and pulled out a little box. he gave it to me and i opened it up. it was a black heart key necklace and he had the book to go with it.
"everytime we are together we can unlock our memories and writtings"
"this is so amazing. i love you so much and i hope you know that"
i gave him a nice long hug then a smooth kiss.
bloodlust : chapter 10
bloodlust chapter 10 "what is wrong"
well here we go. another day of pain and hate. what is wrong..... everything apperentlly.
oh she just didnt call me that. ooooh sometimes i just wanna.... nevermind. besides the point thats reall uncalled for. i mean really. just no need for it.
okay i just want to draw the line and punch them the fuck out. but i went to my locker instead. i just contuined to ingonor them and to make sure they dont exsite in my head. i mean big time.
i opened my locker to a note falling out.
i am sooooooo sorry for not being around lately for you and for saying im always busy. i just wanted you to know that i love you with all my heart and ill make it up for you. meet me after school and ill show you what i mean.
love you lots"
awwww is all i had to say and think about.
'i love him so much'
i thought to myself
bloodlust : chapter 9
bloodlust chapter 9 "wow'
i was sitting in my desk thinking and wondering why the world is so crewl. so i thought to myself what if everyody actually liked me. so i dreamed about that day.
ovisally i fell asleep if the flipping teacher is yelling at me to get up. i grab my stuff and walked out of the class room. the teacher didn't stop me tho because i do this all the time so im pretty sure he dosen't care. mr looks like a pedofile. that's what everyone calls him. mr pedofile. lol
"im home and going to my room. and im not hungry"
"i dont care"
i locked my door and opened my email. 'oh this one looks interesting' i said to myself.
your hair so lame.
your clothes so blah,
u so cutter,
so go kill yourself
love the cheerleders"
oh i just got so pissed when i read te rest of my emails. i just couldn't stand it anymore.
bloodlust : chapter 8
bloodlust chapter 8 "bloody night"
i left a path of blood on my floor. i made sure my door was locked so no one could get in.
"im not hungry"
'bitch' i whispered to myself. i was gettin tired and sick of my mom treating me like that. i cleaned up my little path and layed down and played some black veil brides.
"let me in"
"you have till the count of 3"
"im not a baby so fuck off"
"you wait until you come out of that room. you'll be in so much fucking troble you skank"
my mom out of all people called me a skank. wow i just couldn't believe it. so i packed up some stuff and went out my window and went to the park were i always go to. i was sitting there thinking how my life had this big turn in it and how i couldn't believe all of it.
bloodlust : chapter 7
bloodlust chapter 7 "is that really you"
not having a care in the world i put on my bring me the horizon shirt and left for another day.
i wlked to hot topic to find some new clothes and stuff. i found this one shirt saying
'if you hate me i dont care, i am who i am so suck it'
i loved that shirt so thats one of the things i was goin to buy. i found a few braclets and went to the counter. i payed for the stuff and left.
"why aren't you dead yet"
of course they would start that up. but whatever i just kept on walking away. you know im retty sure im going crzy about this.
i bumped into my boyfriend who was all jumpy.
"i got to go"
he left and i wonder. 'is that really him' i didn't know tho.
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